i am STARTING TO HATE HIM!

he is s0 bad...


he always IGNORES me...


why is it that he is treating me this way...


:(((((((


I AM STARTING TO HATE HIM...

I LOVE MY CLASSMATES...

i am having a nice time w/ my new classmates..

we are ONLY 7 in the batch..

NOT MANY ... awwwww...

but i still LOVE THEM!


we are 4 girls in the room and 3 guys...


WE ARE VERY CLOSE TO EACH OTHER and i l0ve it... :)))


i am having a good time when i am with themmmm...


:))

I FEEL COMFORTABLE! :))

s0me0ne is making me Happy.. :))

s0meone is making me happy these past days...


yeah... and i l0ve it!


his name is yuki0 .. :)


and he is fr0m taiwan...


anyway..


i met him in facebook...


he is the SWEETEST guy that I ever met...



he let me feel that I am VERY SPECIAl


eventh0ugh we still d0n't meet pers0nally...


I thank him fr helping me m0ve-on with my previous relationship w/ Charles f0r 3 years and 3 m0nths...

it is l0ng huh?


well...


i guess... he (Charles) is n0t just the perfect guy f0r me...


or the best b0yfriend...


there are still c0mplications on our relationship

eventh0ugh it lasted f0r 3 years and 3 m0nths...


s0metimes...


i w0nder .. what w0uld be our relationship if I didn't br0ke up w/ him... :((


I still miss him...


I miss EVERYTHING ab0ut him... :((


I miss when calls me h0ney / h0n...


and i also miss calling him that way..


Oh my...


i guess...


i am still n0t 0ver him...


i still l0ve him


and he will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart.. :((


MISS YOU MY HONEY! :((

BOREDOMNESS :)

i feel b0red here in our h0use...


that's why...



i just to0k a pictures of me.. :))



BOREDOM!


that's what I call it! :))



(I love my BANGS! :)) )

H0ping for the best

scho0l starts next week...


I have my plans already,,,



to be the CLASS PRESIDENT (~if there is~)


to have a HIGHER GRADES in all of my subjects



to have LOTS OF FRIENDS


to kn0w SOMEONE>>>??? :))


h0ping for the best,,, :))



GOODLUCK!

I'm just starting t0 like HIM!

hahhaha...



I just starting to like this group...


well...


I'M SO ADDICTED t0 them...


especially t0 HIM~!!!!



ARKIN DEL ROSARIO JR.




My friends keep telling me that he lo0ks like Charles...



but I d0n't think s0... :))


I kn0w that I still l0ve Charles...


but i have t0 MOVE ON!

Birthday Celebration of my Dad,

Yesterday...



I had l0ts of fun during the b-day celebration of my dad,



he has l0ts of guests...



but then...



I had s0 much fun...



i'm lo0king f0rward in my birthday celebration next m0nth,,,,



at STAR CITY!!!! :))




but n0w...



all I want is t0 g0 in scho0l already...


I'm super b0red! :))

I have the BESTEST MOM ever... :))

last Saturday...


I had my HEART-t0-HEART talk w/ my m0ther...



she asked me about my pr0blems...


and she als0 answered the questions that I w0uld like t0 ask her,,,



she explained t0 me....



EVEVRY LITTLE THING that I need t0 kn0w...



and I'm s0 happy ab0ut it...



I'm s0 pr0ud that I have the BESTEST MOM!!! :))


I l0ve my m0m VERY MUCHHHHH!! XD

I'm BORED!

i am SUPER BOOOORED!



I can't d0 something else USEFUL here in our house...



s0 what else?



FACEBOOK???


CHAT???


Playing my fav0rite MUSICS???



IPOD???



the helll!!!


I'M SO BOREEEEEDDDD!!!

Starting a new BEGINNING.

yesterdat=y...


I texted my m0m and my dad..


I app0logized t0 them...


because of my bad attitude...


my m0m and dad accepted my ap0l0gy and gave me a VERY INSPIRING QUOTE:



I want t0 share it with y0u guyz...



"Life is FULL of CHALLENGES and TRIALS ... That's why we are making sure that you are on the RIGHT PATH..."



after i finished reading it..


I cried because i remember the bad things that I did t0 them.


having 0ffended them many times...



but n0w...


I pr0mised t0 myself that


I w0n't be the PERFECT DAUGHTER that they will have but instead


the BEST daughter that they will l0ve f0rever,

I feel BAD.

I feel BAD t0day...


I wasn't able t0 g0 at Anji's h0use t0 celebrate her bday w/ my other friends...



but...


later THIS NIGHT...


we (with my FAMILY) will watch SHREK 3D



i understand what my m0ther and father is trying t0 tell me...


and its my fault if I didn't g0t their TRUST,,,



I kn0w my limitations...



but..


h0nestly..


there are really times that I decide f0r my 0wn..


and that is really bad...


:((



I will change my BAD ATTITUDES starting this day...


I sh0uld PUT THE WRONG ONES int0 RIGHT ones.


h0pe that I will regain their TRUSTS... :(

MISSING y0u. :(

everyday...


reminiscing the time when we were STILL t0gether...



the LAUGHTERS...



the TEARS...



the JOYS...


the FIGHTS...


his VOICE.


the way he talks t0 me...


EVERY TIME... he always tells me that HE LOVES ME very much...



:((



I'm Missing him BADLY...



i miz EVERYTHING ab0ut HIM...



i STILL l0ve HIm


but yet...


I have t0 let him g0...


find the right one f0r me.



He may seems t0 be the perfect guy f0r me...


my friends tells me that,



he is a VERY r0mantic pers0n


a very CARING one


I kn0w that HE TRULY LOVES me...



but if having him will be my last opti0n...


then i have t0 set him free...


i miss y0u Charles Lois Reyes.

UPCOMING events in my life,,,

there are may UPCOMING events in my life that I really need t0 have MONEY... :))



l0ts of m0ney... XD




anyway...



once in a while...


i just th0ught that I sh0uld have a b0nding time w/ my family


especially w/ my siblings...



jhemy Anne and Jemyr John... :))



but supp0sedly I d0n't really have the time t0 d0 this...



because i'm busy w/ other things in my life,,,




and im scared that i w0uld n0t d0 it this c0ming m0nths because I will be in c0llege already...




BUSY sched.


SCARY teachers ( I h0pe n0t)


and


MOUNTAIN full of assignments...



but h0nestly...


i'm excited on my first day of scho0l...



but TRULY...


i will miss my FRIENDS...



CKL,,, :((


my H.S batchmates...



my MOST l0ved section and classmates...


St. Louise de Marillac



but then


I HAVE TO FACE THE REALITY,



bye,,,,, :))



have a nice week ahead !

Have you ever HATED loving someone?

An article that I written BASED on my experiences WITH him f0r three years and 2 months.
COMMENTS will be APPRECIATED s0 much. Thanks guyz.



The worst thing that can happen to a person when she falls in love with someone else is to regret the choice she has made. You realize the person next to you doesn't suit you and you get to hate YOURSELF for LOVING HIM SO MUCH. Even if each day you try to convince yourself that you have TO LET GO and to try something else your heart doesn't allow you.



Your mind tries to present you all the negative aspects of your RELATIONSHIP, all that you hate about him, all the lonely nights when you didn't stop CRYING, all the days when he promised he wouldn't let you down and all the times when he did. but you can't just stop loving him. you hate yourself for being so weak in front of his charms and there are moments when you pretend you don't know anything and you act as if he were another person. You are the one who BLAMES herself for not having tried to do more for your relationship, when in fact he is the ONLY ONE responsible.



It is not a solution to blame yourself and to feel sorry for your lack of a strong character. You have to take drastic measures. You have to have the courage to say NO. NO to his so-called love, NO to a FALSE RELATIONSHIP that only COUNTS on you. There are moments when in each relationship you feel you hate yourself for loving so much a person, but these moments pass when things go better. But if you get to feel this each day of your life, when you spend the majority of your time CRYING INSTEAD OF LAUGHING then you have questioning what you have next to you or what you should have.



You have to respect yourself MORE, to see what you really deserve, you have to ACCEPT the FACT : "y0u'd better be ALONE than with a pers0n that DOESN'T deserve you."

searching f0r a new beginning

n0thing special happened t0day,,,



n0thing really special..


s0meone just made my day happy...


he made my day unf0rgettable... :))



i guess...


he is being nice t0 me...


but i HOPE


that HE IS DIFFERENT.

UNEXPECTED ending...

t0day is the birthday of my little br0ther Jemyr j0hn



but


there are EVENTS that 0ccured t0day...


SAD EVENTS that I didn't EXPECT t0 happen.


a friend of mine named: Maria Kristel Regis


died due t0 an accident happened this m0rning at infanta, Quez0n.


when I heard the sad news fr0m my tita..


i c0uldn't believe that she is dead already...



when i had my interview at LCC last m0nth...


I saw her with her nieces and her nephew...


she is still the beautiful and kind Ate Kristel that I met f0ur years ag0...



she will always have A SPECIAL PLACE in my heart...


I will never f0rget her...





R.I.P
Maria Kristel C. Regis


I LOVE YOU ATE TETEL... :*
I will ALWAYS pray f0r y0ur s0ul.
thanks f0r the mem0ries. :((

Learning the ART of LETTING HIM GO.

we just br0ke up.


GOD! It's VERY PAINFUL.


I did my part t0 be the best GIRLFRIEND.



I did EVERYTHING.


He did NOTHING.


h0w am I supp0sed t0 live WITHOUT him.



t0day...



I'm started t0 be a MAN-HATER



just because of HIM???



I GUESS... all the b0ys are ALL THE SAME...



they will make y0u FALL IN LOVE


but they will als0 make y0u FALL APART.



I th0ught he is n0t like THEM.



that he is DIFFERENT.



UNIQUE.


He will LOVE me f0r wh0 am I.


but


IT IS DIFFERENT.



i suffered EMOTIONAL DEPRESSION.


just because of HIM.



Lord kn0ws its KILLING me.



DEEP INSIDE.

just KEEP swimming... :))

go0devening every0ne...


just g0t h0me fr0m MEZZA c0nd0minium


BONDING TIME w/ my siblings

(jhemy Anne & jemyr John)


SWIMMING time this summer...



I LOVE IT!


because it is TOTALLY HOT here in Philippines...


anyway...


i had s0 much fun t0day...


NYTIE! :))

First day of the m0nth- May

I really had s0 much fun t0day...



I just g0t h0me fr0m R0bins0n Pi0neer with HIM...


anyway..


We b0ught the gift of baby Gia...


my first g0dchild...


ehhehe...



I'm s0 happy because f0r the first time I already have my g0dchild...


her baptism will be in Malate Church in May 9, 2010


THAT's MOTHER's DAY


OMG!


I still d0nt have my gift f0r my m0ther and als0 f0r my grandm0ther...


I have t0 save a l0t of m0ney this m0nth of May because...


I will be g0ing out on our h0use f0r tripping...


MALLING...


EATING...


Kicking s0me ENEMIES... LOL!


just kidding...


Nytie guyz!


s0 much l0ve

==> ~Juls_18~ <==

a NEW LIFE f0r me..

its been a l0ng while since I p0sted my last bl0g here...


hahaha...

it is als0 kinda funny because,,


last February i pr0mised t0 myself that I will p0st a bl0g everyday..


a j0urnal on the things that I d0...


anyway....



I WILL PROMISE that I will ALWAYS update my bl0g here..


that's my assurance...

I will always write a j0urnal here


everyday...


PROMISED!


have a go0d day! :))

VIDEOKE!

t0day is a big day!


n0t t0tally a big day....



but a day full of SPECIAL MEMORIES... :D


after we left the scho0l...



my friends and I

went t0 Leslie's h0use,,,


we did l0ts of things there...



we ALL watch the series "AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL..."



:))

after that...


we went t0 CYMON'S h0use...


(~Anji, Let, Kia and ME~) ==> leslie didn't j0in us...:(


we did l0ts of things there...


but I enj0y the VIDEOKE PART!


ahhah...


Justine A, Angelica E, Patty P., Regi, Rufa, Erika E., Alyssa, Joyce, Earvin, Judennesse...


als0 j0ined us there,,,


I REALLY HAD SO MUCH FUN!


FUN FUN FUN!



I l0ve it!

STUDY...STUDY...STUDY!

it is really hard being a 4th year student,,,


there are many tasks that needs to be accomplished...


there are many obligations that needs to be fulfilled...


QUIZZES!


ASSIGNMENTS...!

RECITATION...


urggggghhhhh!


but s0meh0w... I enjoy d0ing this stuffs lately...


maybe I GOT MY INSPIRATION....


hahhaha...


anyway...



I STILL LOVE STUDYING!


:)

VaLenTiNeS dAy PRESENT!

yesterday..


we celebrate VALENTINES DAY,,



I just want t0 greet y0u all a HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!


h0pe that y0u enj0y that day...


yesterday... :D


anyway...


HE (~CharLes~) has a gift t0 me f0r this Valentines Day...


he gave it t0 me last Thursday night...


==> THE FIRST GIFT: <==

ch0c0lates... yeah... I LOVE CHOCOLATES!


n0t only a CHEAP CHOCOLATE...


but a BUNCH of ch0c0lates...


yipeeeee....


I REALLY ENJOY IT!


==> 2nd GIFT <==

which he gave t0 me yesterday...


A BOUQUET OF FLOWERS...


zuper sweeettttttt...

:))


I d0 l0ve him!


t00 bad that I didn't sh0w my LOYALTY t0 him at first...


BUT THIS TIME!


i will reaLLy ReaLLy sh0w my GRATITUDE & my LOYALTY t0 him...


my 0ne and only ~h0ney~


==> I LOVE YOU HONEY!


i'm s0 thankful that I HAVE YOU in my Life...


l0ve y0u m0re & m0re each day! :*

TaXi?.... JeEpNeY?...

ahhaha...


isn't cute?


I mean...the Title of my bl0g f0r this day,,, :D


anyway...


yesterday was a FUN DAY f0r me...


First: the result of my CarD...


NO FAILING GRADES!


NO LINE OF 7! :D


I'm one of the CREAM OF THE CLASS!


yeahhhh...


I'M ZUPER HAPPPPPIIIIIEEEEE!!!! ...:D


by the way...


yesterday,,,,


while waiting f0r a jeepney (~ a public vehicle here in the Philippines ~)


my friend (~AnJi~) and me tackled of l0ts of things,,,



FRIENDS...CLASSMATES....BATCHMATES...


and l0ts of stuffs,,,


ahahhaha


here is the FUNNY THING:

we waited for an empty jeepney for...


guess h0w many minutes...






45 MINUTES,,,



ahhahha,,,


but that's ok...

I still had SO MUCH FUN being w/ her...


while waiting... there is a BACKGROUND MUSIC behind us...


entitled: BROKEN VOW! hahahaha...



I remember last year when we are waiting for an EMPTY TAXI!


hahha...


I will SURELY missed her,,,


and also w/ my other BESTFRIENDS....


==> CKL!


yeah... I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!


l0ve y0u guyz!

Cream of the Class rather...:D

yipeee.....


I'm so happy t0day...



because it is the distribution of our report cards f0r the third quarter...



:))


anyway...


just want t0 ann0unce that I am the Top 15 of our class...


yipeee....



I'm very very happY!


BUT i think i'm still n0t contented with my grades...


i d0n't kn0w why...


but!


I'M SUPERRRRRRR HAPPPYYYYYY!!!


:D


l0ve y0u all!


STill w0ndering or planning if I will c0ntinue my BREAK-UP PLAN w/ my Bf...



:((


I DON'T KNOW !!!!


I STILL CAN'T CHOOSE!


Please help me guyz! :D


thanks a l0t! L0ve y0u all!

Am I being selfish?

i didn't wr0te a blog last night because i was too sleepy t0 make one...


anyway...



here is my problem...


I am confused (~my FEELINGS~)... between my tw0 friends,,,


BOYFRIEND and FRIEND


I like my friend a lot but HE likes someone else,...


in fact... HE ALREADY HAS A GF! (OUCH~!)

anyway...


I LOVE MY BF too...


I didn't cheat on HIM even once....



my problem is...


I tHInK I'M FALLIN' IN LOVE w/ My BESTFRIEND...


(The subject on my first blog)... b0k-b0k...


IT IS REALLY REALLY HARD!


ouch...


I guess... I should broke up w/ my CURRENT BF so I will be able to stop myself from CHEATING ON HIM!



DAMN!


what sh0uld I do...?



Should I broke up w/ him eventhough our relationship LASTS for 3 YEARS already?



Guyz! please do HELP ME!


Thanks a lot!

The JACKET THING!

Here is my first bl0g f0r this new URL...yeah...I mizzed my bl0gz... :D


Anyway..



Last week...February 3-5 is our RETREAT in Tagaytay...


IT STARTED w/ the Jacket... :D


I b0rrowed a Jacket fr0m my EX-CRUSH (~I guess~) and my friend (~this is for sure~)...Let us just call him BOK-BOK...and I'm HIS POKNAT! :D


bc0z it was really really cold in Tagaytay and the jacket / sweater that I brought isn't enough yet... so I decided to borrow HIS jacket...


MY BOYFRIEND: CHARLES...

got MAD when I told him that I borrowed the Jacket of Bok-Bok...JEALOUS... :P ...maybe,,,


anyway...

that Saturday morning... February 6...


my friend (~Leslie~) and I went to MOA or SM Mall Of Asia...

Charles got mad at me because I didn't told him that I am going somewhere... OUCH! :((


ANOTHER FIGHT! urggghhhhh...


then...last Night... SUNDAY! :)) ...


when I called up in their house... because OUR RELATIONSHIP IN MY SIDE IS ILLEGAL! :(


keep QUIET! :D


he told me to go to the Church (~our SECRET meeting place~)...because he will give me s0mething... guess what is it...



A NEW COLOR BLUE JACKET!


SUPPPPPEEERRRR SWWEEEEETTTTTTTT.... :))



HIS REASON: so I will not borrow that jacket anymore!

hehehe...



I LOVE YOU ~h0neY~!!!


LOVE YOU MORE EACH DAY!


Three YEARS and 1 month is WORTH KEEPING and LOVInG MORE!


our RELATIONSHIP is WORTH KEEPING FOR...


yeah...


love you HONEY!